♥ Von ♥

silence.

don't feel like talking at all today

to be honest, i don't even have the strength to utter a word

i tried surviving through the day with a big fake smile on my face and forced conversations, pretending like nothing is wrong

and you know what?

i give up

i know people are worried about me

but don't try to talk to me about this, please

don't ask me if i am okay, if everything is alright

don't give me sympathetic looks or say that everything will be fine

don't pretend to know how i feel or tell me what to do

i just want to be alone

i can't seem to be able to cry or even shed a tear

perhaps i cried too many times, my tears have run dry

woke up and opened my eyes, i thought of you

brushed my teeth, washed my face, i thought of you

looked into the mirror, saw myself, i thought of you

ignoring scoldings from my mom for not answering her because i don't feel like talking, i thought of you

on the way to uni, i thought of you

listening to music, i thought of you

being asked why am i so quiet, i thought of you

in class, i thought of you

writing down notes, saw the ring on my finger, i thought of you

friends talked to me, i thought of you

saw other couples, i thought of you

eating my lunch, i thought of you

on the way home, i thought of you

when i am alone, i thought of you

at the end of the day, i am still thinking about you